5/7/2021 i want to be a homosexual in peace. i want to be a woman in peace. i am tired of others trying to change what that meansRead Now i wish that i could just exist as a lesbian woman without having to change the language i use to describe myself to make others comfortable. i want to be a homosexual in peace. i want to be a woman in peace. i am tired of others trying to change what that means
5/6/2021 it’s so lonely and depressing to try and make connections with other “lesbians” and then find out that they are actually bisexuals who hate homosexualsRead Now it’s so lonely and depressing to try and make connections with other “lesbians” and then find out that they are actually bisexuals who hate homosexuals...
5/6/2021 We disappear into terms like ‘queer’ or ‘gay’ or even ‘lgbt’ and I feel like we as a group are sort of expected to nurture other members of the communityRead Now I feel like no one really cares about us or values us in the community. We disappear into terms like ‘queer’ or ‘gay’ or even ‘lgbt’ and I feel like we as a group are sort of expected to nurture other members of the community.
Also, I don’t know if I’m a lesbian or if I’m bisexual. I feel like no boy or man would ever look twice at me or want me and now I can’t even imagine that happening, and I know I like girls so much, and I don’t know if I like boys I’d rather shut boys off so I didn’t have to face the rejection or if I just think I like them because I’ve come to associate male approval with my own sense of self worth 5/6/2021 every time I see people coercing or otherwise manipulating lesbians to be sexually attracted to penises, I'm reminded of being abusedRead Now I'm a CSA survivor as well as a lesbian, and every time I see people coercing or otherwise manipulating lesbians to be sexually attracted to penises, I'm reminded of being abused. I don't feel safe in LGBTQ spaces anymore because of it.
5/6/2021 It took me twenty years to stop hating myself for being this way, to stop looking in a mirror and hearing queer, abnormal, freak in the back of my head. I will never let anyone call me that word againRead Now I hate how the word queer has become the label that everyone's expected to be happy with. I hate going to my classes and having to talk about queer representation and the queer community and queer rights and queer, queer, queer. They say it's a reclamation but I don't want to reclaim it.
When I hear the word queer, I'm not empowered. I'm sixteen years old, trying to come to terms with myself in the middle of small town America. I'm fourteen years old, trying to act like I'm not listening while adults I trust laugh about people like me. I'm twelve years old, reading about Matthew Shepard and barely resisting the urge to vomit. I'm ten years old, knuckles white as I kneel in a church pew and pray to God to make it all go away. I'm not queer. I'm a lesbian. It took me twenty years to stop hating myself for being this way, to stop looking in a mirror and hearing queer, abnormal, freak in the back of my head. I will never let anyone call me that word again. I’m in a remote area, and I’m afraid to even try to join any nearby LGBT groups. I don’t want to be rejected for being a lesbian, I don’t know if I could handle it. I want a place where I can feel comfortable and safe as a lesbian.
I left the LGBT community because it's easier for me to call myself a young spinster than a lesbian. I'd rather love women at a distance than be part of the community again. Both as a lesbian and a woman, I'm tired of the community constantly pushing my boundaries and telling how to feel and what to think.
5/5/2021 Many people apparently believe that femininity is innate to women and if you don't want to engage in it you aren't a womanRead Now The community seems to emphasise and perpetuate gender stereotypes even more than heterosexual society at this point. Many people apparently believe that femininity is innate to women and if you don't want to engage in it you aren't a woman. Which as a lesbian, seems utterly contrary to all feminist and lesbian history
5/5/2021 surrounded by transwomen who parrot the same talking points and shame tactics used, nearly word for word, by the youth pastor that tried to help me "pull away from sin"Read Now I'd really really like, as a lesbian woman, to no longer be surrounded by transwomen who parrot the same talking points and shame tactics used, nearly word for word, by the youth pastor that tried to help me "pull away from sin"
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